I am fully confidant that God is writing the pages of my story in life. The melody has changed, therefore, it is a new song and rhythm. For whatever reason, my life dancing partner is gone and I have had to "change partners and dance." I am determined to keep dancing through life. I know heaven is full of dancing and celebration so I feel I have a God given right to dance now and celebrate even though I didn't want the melody and song to end. In the Lord's prayer, Jesus says, "on earth as it is in heaven." therefore, I will keep trying to follow the melody of His grace.
Joe gave me a figure years a few years back that I think was prophetic. The saying on it said, "When you reach for your dreams your soul dances." He gave it to me when I went to Thailand to speak. Then a dear friend gave me another figurine of a beautiful girl dancing. I believe that is who I am becoming. It is a season of learning to dance cheek to cheek with Jesus. I know that sounds a little cheesy but it is true. I love getting lost in worshiping God and dancing with Him. Read the Psalms...David danced so radically his clothes fell off! I will keep mine on!
On a personal note, I was able to see my sweet daughter and son-in-law when I went to Houston. I have really missed my girl. It is fun to see them making their own life together. Price is out in the middle of the Gulf of Mexico on an off shore drilling rig this summer. He is following the head engineer around and is working 12 hour days. I know he is learning much. Austin and Laura have purchased a boat and are busy skiing, planting a garden and enjoying the East Coast. I plan to go see them in July...well really I planed to see them in June but hit the wrong button when I booked the flight so now I am going in July! It will be interesting to see why God wanted me here now and there later. Planning does not work for me still!
My trip to California recently proved that I truly am advancing in the area of grief. I had one day that I cried for about 3 minutes. That was huge for me; but later that day I just felt angry. As I pondered why, I realized that our last family vacation was to California and that there would never be another time like that for us. Our family dynamics have changed...I never wanted them to, but change is here to stay, like it or not.
Dancing and Reinventing,