Wedding Parties and New Experiences

June 13, 2010

I had a busy week in Dallas at a national training for CWJC. I really enjoyed my time helping other people learn how to start a CWJC. The days were long but rewarding and I am passionate about what I do. I have had several emails from the people I taught expressing their gratitude. I also enjoyed making new friends. But I was exhausted from the long week….not much time to process.

I returned on Friday and Saturday evening there was a party for Mallory and Rob. It is fun to celebrate their up coming marriage. It was wonderful to visit with friends and family and it was a great party. We are on the count down with the wedding only 4 weeks away! Today was a little difficult as Mallory and I were looking thru photo albums for a DVD presentation to play at the rehearsal dinner. Looking thru the years of our lives was hard as I realize that life is over and I miss Joe not sharing the fun with me. I feel like I am processing many different emotions but the good news is I am moving forward.

Did I mention that I went on a date a few weeks ago? It was a wonderful experience and I had fun. I have been talking to my new friend for almost six months and he has been a great friend and a wonderful first date after 33 years with Joe. It takes a lot of courage to start over but I know I must go on. The truth is I have been grieving and letting go for over a year and a half now and I am ready to move on. Like it says in the bible, “forgetting the things that are behind, I press on”. It isn’t easy to move on but Joe is not coming back. I continue to ask God to heal my heart and keep the kids and me moving in the grief process. God is faithful and I have confidence in His ability to heal the broken hearted.

Enjoying His love and moving forward,

Kathleen